R.I.P Chaz and JAB

............9:56 pm July 15, 2011.....the day and time I got the text that someone I knew had passed....someone I crushed hard for passed.....my very first crush was gone......

Wasn't easy hearing/reading it over a text, wasn't easy when another text comes in saying another person you knew also passed the same day

Chaz Lee Rayborn....oh where do I begin....brother's friend, so you know I had a crush..but he was different....he actually talked to me and hung around....loved going to my brother and his baseball games...loved that smile of his.......
-Remember the Good memories while he was here....{Mac County Relay}
Never Forget....how could anyone ever think that I would
- Lost touch....grew up....met different people....never got a chance to talk to him again :(
- Kim, his mother, one of the most wonderful woman I could ever know......
Will always cherish and never forget what she said to me....the day of her son's visitation.....
"Awe, you could have been my daugther-in-law"----she never forgot
-No mother should ever have to bury their baby....she was forced to :(
We will miss you and love you always....R.I.P

JAB....Uncle's Step Father...but the only father he knew.....sweet as can be....been sick for awhile....survived an EF5 tornado......lost to a maybe heart attack..........
-Always in a good mood, always knew how to make people laugh, huge loving heart
I didnt know you as well as I should have, but knew you enough to know how great of a person you truely were
- You have an amazing Family that loves you deeply and will never ever forget you or the person you are...R.I.P

Even though it doesn't seem quite fair, everything happens for a reason and you both are in a better place
You were and are both amazing people with wonderful hearts of gold....
You will ALWAYS be remembered and NEVER forgotten
You were and will ALWAYS be loved
R.I.P
Shall we someday meet again

Time For A Change

This town i call home is getting way too small....
i've been here all my life...i know what's here, what's been here, and what it has to offer...

and honestly i am getting nothing out of it

the only thing i seem to be getting out of it is a bunch of drama and heartbreak

a change would be good =)
just get up and leave everything behind
leave behind all the bad memories
but dont worry the good memories will not be forgotten because they will always be in my heart
i dont want to leave but i think it may be for the best....
i cant stay around and make everyone else happy....i have to make myself happy for once
i am doing this for myself not anybody else

but this is just a thought
and maybe reality here soon

Prayers without understanding

hmm...god really does have a way of working that i'll never understand....but that's ok with me

when i pray for something, its like he gives me something else...but in a good way...

not complaining just think it's strange and cool =)